God's tortureI should feel guilty, right? RIGHT?But I do not! Not at all! My conscience is FINE.Know why? This was GODS work. He asked me to do it.Let us take a step back, and start from the beginning
I loved her. The way she smelled, the way she wrote, they way she said my name, the way she slept. Especially the way she slept. Sometimes I would sneak into her house. I would use the front door. Or the back door. Or the window. Then I would sit by her bed.I would listen to her breath. She was so peaceful. Tranquil. Happy. Perfect.She never woke up. I was always quiet. Perfectly quite. I was there to protect her.I would kiss her lips. So gently, so slowly. She never woke up. Never.She did not know what I did. I was her guardian angel. She did not know I was her guardian angel. I loved her. She loved me too. But she did not know it. I would try to make her know. God knows I tried hard. I would make her smile. Her smile was like birthday cake. And I would secretly touch her hands. Sh
homeThe California lush splashes my soulThe grass is greener hereJaded hills, myrtle trees,Even the forest green road signsBearing familiar namesYes,IAmHomeAnd the sky!The California blue sky!Here, the clouds dont hangDont bumble along, dont tryNo, the clouds relaxLaid back, their beauty is effortlessYes,IAmHomeThe bus cannot drive me back any fasterBack to the Bay Area,Back to reality,Back to homeYes,IAmHome,Sweet home
EverythingI give you everythingThat I canI sacrificeI let goI bleed,I fucking bleedAnd where the fuck are youWhen I need someone?Why the hell do I give?So you can find a smile somewhere else?So you can leave me writing shitty anger poetry?Where the fuck are youWhen I need you, damnit?
The Sky and YouThe sky is delicate and elaborateMy eyes taste the cloudsWhen I enjoy the blue and whiteI see only youThe sun is the tears, the dreams,Which tint your soul.And when light subsides,When the blue turns deep,When darkness stretches across the skyI gaze contently, confidently, wistfullyAt the astrology of things youve said to meI cannot number them allFor I get lost recounting each word,Searching it for meaningCherishing it for feelingI feel not lostIn the darkest hourYour moon sails across the nightAnd though she is far awayThough she in intangibleShe guides me to the morning
There are times when I wonderThere are times when I wonderWhy I love youWhy I careWhy I'm unable to push you awayWhy do I stand, waiting?Why do I sit, dreaming?Why do I lay, wishing?Why do I give?Then there are timesWhen I'm with youAnd I wish I could be angry at you,But I can'tAnd I hold youMaybe you'll hold meAnd the answers seem so obvious
Mastered CollisionMy body in two, she knows what to doTakes one side, collides with my other halfA crash, sizzle, hi-hat, always on cueAd-libbed creation, or whats on the staffHesitating in the air, then a swishThe metal on metal love collisionHer arms guide me in a strong, proud flourishPerformed with perfectionists precisionClamping me together, tight and acuteRuns one side against the other, a zingA loud crash, against her body to muteA heavy crash, this time she lets me ringLoud and quiet, slow then take it fasterI obey her, my crash cymbal master
Heavy CloudsThe sun had recently left the sky,But its resplendence still lingered on the clouds.The clouds floated, divided into lines,A rank and file of dreams and poemsMarching off into a war of feelingWhere nothing is lost, but fear and failureWhere comfort is wonWhere pasts are reunited with their ownersWe take a seat to admire the sky,To absorb her beautyAny words we speakFeel as textured as the vault above usI coax her, and the azure aids meHer heartstrings are exposed.Theyre played like a harpHer words spite me playfullyShe turns, and walks awayTrying to hide her touched tearsHer eyes have become cloudsHeavy with moisture and emotionShe wont let rain pourBut I indulge in a light mistI kiss her cheekAnd we walk awayThrough a friendly fog
Who needs forever?Darling, I love you. Darling, you're my everything.Darling, hold me. Darling, I'll treat you right.Darling, trust me. Darling, you're perfect.WhoNeedsForever?Your poetic words fall on deaf earsClosed eyes won't see your tearsNumb hands won't feel your heart beatHer tongue won't taste you, so sweetYour tears come outAs emotion, with no doubtWe were meant to lastI went too fastShe was so rightMy day and nightIt was all my faultFrom her eyes: Just water, saltShe was your always, your happy daysYou had no clue, she didn't need youYou were her tool, you were a foolAnd she was so clever...Who needs forever?
No she wontShe will never knowWhat she is doing for meI'm falling for her